A birthday dream!!

So people have been asking "what do u want for your birthday?" I tell them nothing. I say there's nothing I need. I say I have all a girl could ask for…… I lie. I lie to keep my denial. I lie to spare their feelings. I lie to not get the "fake gift" that would come with me answering their question. Yet each time I hear the question I answer it in my mind with a tear in my eye and a pain in my heart…I would want a phone call. 

 You might say "no problem I can call you" or "what do you mean a phone call"

Or even "I'm sure you'll get lots of phone calls" and although they maybe true I don't get the phone call I want. See my dad used to call me on the EXACT time of my birth 8:44 am. It wasn't a well known fact it was something between a father and daughter. He wouldn't  tell me a second or minute before or after. 

See he used to say I was special I was born by appointment only. So the doctor asked " when would you like to have your baby" and he responded "between 8:30 and 9 so that I can get breakfast" lol

 Well it was all downhill from there… at 8:44 I was born by c-section. So every year he called until 2002. When he passed away. Then there was no one, there was no phone calls, there was no one to carry on his tradition. I realize more and more there never will be!! In my mind every time someone asks me, every year, "what do you want for your birthday?" I silently and tearfully answer … I want a phone call!!